Monday, October 09, 2006

Insight

I went out with friends a few days ago and we went to a popular bar. Sure, it was great to hangout with ‘cool’ people and the band that was playing at that time was really good.

But apart from the thumping music and booze, I felt like running away from that place. I have never felt so alone in my life before.

But then, from the glass window, I saw a kid standing in front of me.

He smiled and I smiled back.

…through his eyes I saw a youngster who enjoys solitude while treading a grassy clearing. A kid who weaves his own dreams across the vast purple sky; a kid who cherished the dancing of the dragonflies, of colorful clouds during dusk and of witnessing little miracles.

He was not afraid to be alone, to take pleasure in simple things and to deeply appreciate quiet moments.


I went outside to look for him.


That’s when I realized that the kid was…me.


Your problems aren't that original-Dawson's Creek


19 Comments:

Blogger tin-tin said...

i thought i was the kid you saw :)

how i long for childhood days when you don;t care about anything

5:54 PM  
Blogger Ymir said...

nice!

ive read a book once that we should not let go of the kid in us. it's hard to balance being a "kid" and a "man". but it is a skill that is worth perfecting.

nice pic by the way...

5:54 PM  
Blogger vic said...

There is song that is so hunting, that i can't stop but always get the misty eyes every time i played the compilation of photo album of children of our hometown with that background. the song 'In the eyes of the child' by Air Supply, brings back the kid in everyone of us adults alike who view the album. innocence thou art blessed.

7:29 PM  
Blogger Linguist-in-Waiting said...

This is a very pensive, with a "5th Element" touch... Good one.

6:36 AM  
Blogger pauL said...

i knew it... it was you!.. true... sabi nga ng prof ko dont let go nga the child in you kasi if you do magiging seryoso ka lang sa buhay mo...

10:09 AM  
Blogger Rey said...

glad you still see that "dreaming child" once in a while, Jef. It's there to remind us what we wanted to achieve in life-- back when life was simplier and we can say what we want with foremost conviction.

I can relate to that...

2:01 PM  
Blogger aceian said...

One thing i like about this post is it speaks a lot about me. We have something in common.

6:55 PM  
Blogger His suzy said...

I've always felt a little bit sorry for adults who don't know how to be alone with themselves.

9:53 PM  
Blogger rHo said...

we need to be child at heart sometimes... then you realize, "ayyy... ganun lang pala yun". simple dreams, simple visions... lahat simple! so pagbalik mo sa reality you now have the motivation to do something kasi nagkakaron ka ng tiwala sa sarili mo na you can do everything!

12:05 AM  
Blogger Iskoo said...

dami tayong matutunan sa iba, not really to compare pero kapag nakita natin yung situation ng iba inspite of hardship meron sila maiisip natin na mas mapald pa pala tayosa kanila. lalo na sa mga bata, marami tayong matutunan sa kanila.

12:25 AM  
Blogger _ice_ said...

I love it...

two thumbs up...

4:26 PM  
Anonymous carey said...

I too sometimes have that feeling of being alone amidst so many people, and like you, I just wish I were in a different place.
It's a weird feeling of emptiness...

7:38 PM  
Anonymous Ferdz said...

Again, very impressive piece about solitude and having that child like wonder back again.

A lot of people are afraid of solitude of being alone, but someimes it's also a haven when the crowd surrounding you only blabber of "cool" or mundane things that never really matter.

11:46 PM  
Blogger Estupidormitorian Neil said...

I am the kid! I am a kid! You are old. You can't be one. Lol.

Can relate, too. Sometimes, I think I'm not getting any younger while thinking 'hey, i was like this when i was n years old.' But it naturally happens once in a while, and sometimes you don't seem to notice it, acting like one, thinking like one.

Well in your case, you can't be a kid. Lolo na kita eh. Hehehe. Kidding!

1:49 AM  
Blogger jef said...

TINTIN: Ditto, for the years of innocence.

YMIR: That pic was taken at the office while I was looking below ayala av. thanks for the note.

SIR VIC: I will look for that song. I'm an air supply fanatic, too hehe!

LIW: Thanks, dude! I appreciate it a lot.

PAUL: I thought it was you hehe! Yes! bro, your prof is right kaya wag kang gaanong seryose ha, mag-isip bata ka na lang. :-)

REY: It's by remembering the person that I was helps me to move forward. Thanks :-)

ACE: Well, I guess we do have something in common. I have read your earlier posts and as if I was reading my own work :-)

SUZY: I agree, those people are the loneliest...and as such, they try to compensate their existence by trying too hard to fit in :-(


RHO: Tama ka, its having that confidence that you can do things far freater than your expectations.


ISKOO: Masdan mo ang mga bata...tama ang awit. marami nga tayong matututunan sa kanila. At sanay wag nating ipagsawalang bahala na minsan, tayo rin ay naging sila.

ICE: Thanks, man! I appreciate it a lot:-)


CAREY: It is...the most loneliest place for me is when I'm surrounded by many people--people that doesn't care if I exist.


FERDS: Thanks, man. Many people are afraid--me included because by being alone, you will have no choice but to see your own self as it is...no holds bar and sometimes, what you see ain't that pretty:-(


NEIL: Na-aaah! Di pa ko lolo noh! Lasapin mo habang nasa 'teen' years ka pa at pagdating mo ng mga 'yuppy' years, lalong mas mahirap hanapin ang sarili mo. Enjoy it while it last.

1:37 PM  
Blogger Lazarus said...

I love this piece coz I can relate too. The booze, sparkling lights and the loud music, only add to my wanting to be alone. I feel better watching the stars or just feeling the sea breeze.

2:27 PM  
Anonymous snglguy said...

Aren't we all lonely people deep inside? Heck, am I making any sense? :-D

2:41 PM  
Anonymous gbert said...

great great great! this really great... :) very nice jef, love it!

i couldn't agree more...

10:10 AM  
Blogger Sidney said...

“Sometimes when you're really lonely, you really feel alive and you feel like you know who you are.”

1:46 PM  

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