Friday, October 20, 2006

On Failure


Exactly a year ago, the result of the CPA Board exam which I took was finally posted on the different review centers.

I failed. Bummer.

...I believe I already wrote my sentiments in this blog from which I quote:

" I believe my passing of the board will be a good parting gift to my aging parents. They are the main reason why I pushed myself to the limit and muster the remaining strength to finish the race so to speak. And life did go on…but something deep inside me withered and died."

And I continue:

"That was the first time I discovered also that I am not holding my destiny after all and it’s an utter arrogance to say the least, that I am the master of my faith…the captain of my soul. And even if how hard you work, sometimes those things or events that you want most cannot be materialized because simply, it wasn’t meant to be.

Though, all these ephemeral disappointments come and go, what I’ve learned most about all these series of events was this absolute truth: family will always be there.

I’m still learning to accept my reality as it is but I don’t plan my life now with a matter-of-fact approach…instead I carve my dreams and wishes nowadays across the walls of my heart and buff it with a simple prayer that His will shall be done."


I still plan to take the board for the LAST time and let's just see. Failure is just a temporary setback. It's not the end result or culmination of an endeavor. As the great Abe Lincoln once coined, " It was just a slip... not a fall."


A friend texted me this message a couple of days ago--talk about coincidence--and thanks to her, my pity party came to a hault.

In my existence, I realized that happiness is a very subjective factor in ones life...being happy doesn’t depend on achieving what you want, but rather making the best out of what is given. Life isn't fair, it never was. The only thing that can make you completely happy is CONTENTMENT...be content on what you have, but be sure to aim high and never stop believing you can do better every time. But if all else fails, don't forget than an ordinary you has an extraordinary God to back you up!

To you my dear friends who took time to read all the sappiness I have to offer, please forgive me if sometimes, all my thoughts are just random pinches of emotion. Yes! You are right...I should be given a restraining order because I should be in a mental asylum***kidding*** but when I started posting my thoughts, my main motivation was to inspire and if I did (even in a very remote possibility) then I have accomplished to what I believe I am here for.

Have a great Weekend, Guys!

27 Comments:

Blogger vic said...

I took mine close to forty years ago and I don't know if I remember a thing about it. But one thing I learned all the years; the more you fail and the more you take them again, the more you learn. For example, I took my driving road test FIVE times to pass, and everybody, just about everyone, told me to give up; and I said, are you guys kidding? Thirty plus years of driving in every kind of weather in a clunker of a car lately, and like I said I learned more the more I failed, not a dent on my cars and the others. So try and good Luck, sometimes it is all you need..

8:55 PM  
Blogger Ymir said...

things happen for a reason. trust that God is working things all together for your good.

have a great weekend too jef.

10:24 PM  
Anonymous carey said...

you know what...a second try at the boards could also be your chance to top it. i know somebody who failed the first time and got a place in the top ten on his second try. now, he's labeled as a topnotcher, and nobody even cares he failed the first time. O, wag mong sabihin di mo kayang mag-top! dapat aim high diba? it's a good decision to go on with your dream. i agree 100% with it. go go Jef! :D

11:53 PM  
Blogger pauL said...

i wouldn't read your blog every now and then if it didnt inspire me or catch my interest... we're still human and being emotional is part of the whole being... :D

3:07 AM  
Anonymous Ferdz said...

Wow! Another great and inspiring entry. It's these raw emotions well written that really captures my interest.

On failure, did you know that thomas Edison failed so many time before he finally succeeding in creating the light bulb? Without his failures we wouldn't have lights in our home, hopefully on this next CPA board makapasa ka. Wag mo naman gayahin si Edison na a hundred times bago makuha. Hahaha! Biro lng.

Failure is just an "Ooops" the important thing is what you do after. Kaya goodluck! Kelangan ko mag hire ng freelance accountant... me ma re refer ka. hehehe

7:22 AM  
Blogger _ice_ said...

i always learn from you jef everytime i read your entry.. you remind me of good/bad things that had happend in my life at it feels good reminiscing those things.. sometime napangiti ka nalng na walang dahilan.

have a nice weekends

8:03 AM  
Anonymous Sam said...

Contentment would definitely give us happiness.

Although I am no genius on this, I believe that everything starts with total surrender, believing that you can never ever have full control on all things. And then, along comes contentment. Eventully, there is peace, and all the rest of the good stuff would be possible.

Aim high and keep the faith, Jeff!!! :D

8:21 AM  
Blogger atticus said...

papasa ka na. will pray for you.

5:59 PM  
Anonymous gbert said...

when i also took the exam and passed i never celebrated my victory, because most of my classmates did not... we all worked for it, studied together and i realize no one deserve to fail... because the exam is not the be all and end all of our careers... most of us can already be considered successful without the license anyway... but anyway jef, with your attitude, you deserve more than the exam... God bless!

6:59 PM  
Blogger cruise said...

try and try lang, sa sususnod na post mo ang balita mo sa sa min pasado ka na! God bless sa exam.

9:53 PM  
Blogger jef said...

SIR VIC: "...the more you fail and the more you take them again, the more you learn."

Great advise, Sir! And yeah LUCK has something to do with it too! Thanks a lot. I really appreciate it :-D Buti ka pa CPA na hehe...


YMIR: I still am, bro. Thanks


CAREY: Pag nag-top ako, siguro magiging puti na ang mga uwak hehe! That's too much though, just to pass is all I need and all I ever want. Bonus na lang kung sakaling pagbigyan ni Lord.

PAUL: Thanks for validating that you are not bored while reading my random thoughts hehe :-D


FERDZ: Ako, pwede ba hehe! Thanks for the note. It's this kind of encouragement that makes me think that the future is bright. If I'm not mistaken, Edison said that "he discovered a thousand ways to fail and he will discover THE one way to succeed. Thanks again.

9:57 PM  
Blogger jef said...

ICE: Shucks, touch naman ako, bro. Thanks ha!


SAM: I beg to disagree...you do know what you are talking about and I really internalized what you said about total surrender. It's by letting go and letting God that opens up a full understanding to our own purpose.

I appreciate you droppin by.


ATTICUS: Thanks, atticus :-)


GBERT: Many people do not understand the rigorous preparation of review and passing the board in general. Kaya ang mga nakakaintindi lang yung mga nakaranas na :-(

You are right by saying that we are not defined by the license we have. Thanks for the encouragement.

CRUISE: Next time ako naman ang sasagot sa starbucks hehe. Hope OK na surgery mo :-D

10:07 PM  
Blogger aceian said...

We live, We learn! ala Alanis.

I love this entry (as always). I always learn good things from you. I love this blog. Mabuhay ka!

3:30 AM  
Blogger Lazarus said...

I passed the CPA board on my first take this month 11 years ago. But I knew the frustration of those who failed. Some did pass the next exam. I even had a hard time consoling my sister when she failed the CPA board twice.

A friend once asked why God let her down. I could not find an answer except that God must have other plans. I prayed hard for my results and he answered it asap. My sister prayed hard for it, but God had other plans.

Keep on praying and study hard for it. You can make it!

10:41 AM  
Blogger tin-tin said...

contentment/fulfillment..my only prayer to God. coz parang yan ang nahihirapan ako makuha.

sometimes, we feel that we're a failure nor can we accept something that has happened. but in the long run we'll realize that God has a perfect plan for us. malabo but in the future we'll see it clearly. and remember that God writes in a crooked line :)

and jeff, you had inspired us. i remember when i was feeling sooo down dati and it was the first time you commented on my blog. when i visited your blog, i became really inspired. i'm sure God has really made you comment in my blog for me to be able to visit yours and be an angel to me. thank you! :)

1:06 PM  
Blogger Rey said...

Jef,
though passing the board is not a gauge for your career(I'm a testament to that. A so called placer yet cannot get a descent job in my home country), parents do think of it as a great culmination to their sacrifices.

I can still remember my parent's faces during that time. The sweet tears and the tight embrace.

A wise fart that you are, I know you're more than capable of acing this thing. Maybe you just have to take it seriously. And learn not to stop even when it hurts.

My brother failed twice in a civil engineering board. but it didn't stopped him from taking once again. So there, he just got it.

Hope you too... brother.

5:26 PM  
Blogger D.T. said...

Jef, I'm so glad to hear that you realize that failure is not the end, but rather just a minor setback that helps us to achieve more.

As for taking the CPA Board exam again, I really hope you do pass it this time, but I hope you do it for yourself. I mean, doing it for your parents is nice and all, but somehow...I think they're already proud of you.

And as your friend, I'm telling you...you may just wanna look more into that whole mental asylum thing...LOL! No, I'm kidding.

2:45 AM  
Blogger cruise said...

talaga libre mo ako kape? hehe. oks na mata ko. ikaw kelan ka mag ta take ng exam?

10:59 AM  
Blogger pilimon said...

pare..

pareho lang..

yaan mo..

dadating din ang MOMENT natin..

6:37 PM  
Blogger jef said...

ACEIAN: You are so kind, bro! Thanks for that affirmation. mabuhay ka rin! :-D

LAZARUS: What an encouraging word from a certified accountant :-) Thank you so much.

TINTIN: Grbae ha, touch naman ako. Di ko alam na ganun kalaki ng impact ng comment ko. I'm really flattered. Thanks. I really appreciate your kind note.

REY: " though passing the board is not a gauge for your career(I'm a testament to that. A so called placer yet cannot get a descent job in my home country), parents do think of it as a great culmination to their sacrifices."

You nailed it. Yes, my past board was not for me but for the parentals. Thanks so much for validating that and for believing that I can make it. In God's perferct time...I CAN!


DAVE: As my parents are already on their twilight years, they are main motivation...and they will always be but you are right, I really should be doing it for myself also. Thanks bro for keeping my blog a part of your reads. I really appreciate it a lot.


CRUISE: Siyempre...I will let you know kung kelan haha! I was thinking about next year. Sana...makakamit ko na ang tagumpay.

PILIMON: Tumpak pare...SOON.

***************************


Guys, To all of you who managed to take time to post an encouraging note THANKS SO MUCH! You don't know how much I appreciated this.

Again, thanks. God bless you all :-D

UPDATE in a while hehe!

9:31 PM  
Blogger don said...

WOW
I wish I wrote this!
Thanks for the reminder fromm the quote below. Hang in there buddy!
Your parents are probably very very proud of you regardless of your acheivements. I dropped school last semester. I phoned my mom with my tail between my legs. Thinking I disaapointed her she said "congratuALTIONS..i'M PROUD OF YOU" Proud of what? Quitting? NO just simply proud of me regardless of my failing.

In my existence, I realized that happiness is a very subjective factor in ones life...being happy doesn’t depend on achieving what you want, but rather making the best out of what is given. Life isn't fair, it never was. The only thing that can make you completely happy is CONTENTMENT...be content on what you have, but be sure to aim high and never stop believing you can do better every time. But if all else fails, don't forget than an ordinary you has an extraordinary God to back you up!

1:05 AM  
Blogger duke said...

ei, easy on yourself, man. and GOdbless on your exam. you'll do fine. :)

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